Conscious Connections

Life consists of connections. We are constantly engaging with our world, those around us and even ourselves. In fact, these points of intersection become defining in not only giving us insight, but moving our lives forward. They appear in all shapes, forms, and ways - all bringing with them a sense of potential.

If we begin with the fact that there are connections happening all around us, questions emerge:

How do we view them? 

What do we do with them?

Do we consider them opportunities or challenges?

Do we look at connections in our lives with curiosity or with skepticism? 

The truth of the matter is, we must begin by establishing where we are. Only then can we determine where we want to go. I’ve often spoke about the idea that “we don’t know what we don’t know.” And this gives us a starting point. Pathways then begin to emerge: some from connections which we have already established and explored, others that seem to be newly illuminated. Either way, we start to see them differently. 

At times, we can get caught in a loop of confusion and overwhelm if we feel we “don’t know”, or experience a kind of paralysis that results from being unsure of how to process the seemingly unending options in front of us. But acknowledging we don’t know is sometimes the best way to start, especially if it’s where we are. If we start with where we are, we've already made an important decision, and in doing so things begin to open up.

We give ourselves the freedom to simply start. 

In this simple act, we give permission, which in turn allows the process to be not just a reaction, but an interaction. An exploration. Even a dance. The inevitable give and take, back and forth of the journey can then start to be something we not only embrace, but enjoy. 

So ask yourself today: Where am I? And what can I choose to begin? 

Pause for a moment, and see what pathways appear. Take a deep breath and start moving. You're on your way. 

"The journey between what you once were and who you are now becoming is where the dance of life really takes place." Barbara DeAngelis

Unprecedented Times

Let’s play a game, shall we? It’s called “Never Have I Ever.”

Never have I ever been alive during a global pandemic.

Never have I ever worried about getting sick because I left my house to go grocery shopping.

Never have I ever experienced a world where there just wasn’t any other news to report.

Never have I ever had to go over three weeks devoid of physical contact with another human being.

Never have I ever felt like I’m living in some sort of bad dream.

Are you out already? Oh. I am too.

Perhaps ironically, I played this game this weekend, with some friends over a FaceTime call while celebrating my 36th birthday. We were trying to be silly and take our minds off the fact that everything we’re dealing with is on one hand totally unbelievable, and on another one of the scariest occurrences of our lives. And on yet another (because right now I wouldn’t even flinch if you told me we actually have three hands) I think what we’re dealing right now is absolutely for a reason.

My "emotional receptors" are quite active: overly alert, acutely responsive, and firing easily these days. I've been struck recently about the levels of grief that accompany this pandemic - the barrage of losses we are experiencing at the moment - and how easy it becomes to just "deal with it" or "figure it out" without taking the time to honor and accept the devastating nature of so many of these losses and accompanying changes being thrust upon us.

My friend sent me an article on grief a number of weeks ago, one that actually labeled it as "Embodied Remembering" - for which I found an incredible resonance. We’re quick to forget that the body doesn’t lie, that we can’t hide what we are experiencing on a physical level, and that our bodies are no doubt in a state of total shock at the moment. Our parasympathetic nervous system (the fight or flight fear response) is probably in a state of near constant triggering for many of us; and for good reason. We’re dealing with inputs we’ve never dealt with before, at level that’s unimaginably heightened.

We are unbelievably resilient and quick to adapt: important survival skills for ourselves and the current state of the world. But often, we’re lacking in the tools to process our body’s state of pure shock right now. For some, our bodies may even be giving us pushback - in the form of pain, fatigue, or even physical anxiousness. Maybe you have tools to help adjust to these unprecedented times, or maybe not. If not, try to really “do” the things you’re doing throughout the day:

If you’re sitting, really sit. Feel the seat of a chair under you.

If you’re walking, feel that you have feet that are connected with the ground.

If you’re lying down, revel in that fact that even if it’s just for those moments, you don’t have to hold yourself up.

At the least, take a moment to consider that just remembering to breathe will help you pause and reconnect, to yourself, and to the universal life force all around us.

It’s never been more apparent that we are all so much more the same than we are different; the far-reaching effects of what we are dealing with don’t discriminate - we’ve all been fairly stopped in our tracks, and if we listen closely, something is being asked of us…

So…what’s being asked of you?

Time and Space

Well…here we are! It’s clearly been too long, as I’m seeing my first foray into blogging stalled out fairly heartily. I suppose we live and we learn! Truth be told, adhering to anything on a regularly consistent (read: regimented) basis has never been a strong suit of mine - in fact taking a course of medicine which requires dosage at a specific time each day gives me a significant amount of anxiety - without fail, I forget to take a dose. Then forget whether I remembered and actually did take it or TOTALLY forgot. Then end up having anxiety about whether or not I’d double dose myself by accident…you can see where this is going. I thought for a long time this was some sort of failure point; a character shortcoming that highlighted my inability to stick with something. And of course this led me to wonder about the unconscious part of me that so heartily revolted against repeating the same action at the same time each day?

But time and space are interesting gifts we’ve been given. And if there’s one thing I’ve learned with perspective, it’s that many aspects of are lives are more indirect than they are direct. Sure, we have a specific goal in mind, but often we’ll take a rather round about way to get there. And sometimes we realize our goal shifted completely and we’re working towards a completely different aim after all.

I’m in a current mind space that’s shifted me - I recently completed a 2-day workshop and became a New Paradigm MDT practitioner - and I’m wondering about all the focus and investment we put on following a set path. A wise woman recently used the analogy that time is sort of like a bowl of soup. With a sweet, juicy carrot there that you really have a taste for. Right now, the carrot could be right next to your spoon…but even one small stirring of the soup and it might be on the other side of the bowl before too long. (Disclaimer: the sweet, juicy line was my addition…I must be a little hungry…)

But this got me thinking about the learning process and each of our individual journeys. It’s so tempting to try and make things fit into our own convenient time and space, because after all, isn’t that the pretty little package we're all working so hard to get? The reality is that the journey-ing is where the change happens, and sometimes time and space is not only welcome, but required. Whether to integrate change, truly be ready for a new space, or for a number of different things to finally come together in a way that makes sense, one of the reasons this work resonates with me is this: Nothing is prescribed. No outcome, no guarantee, and certainly no linear path. But what is even more exciting is that when we welcome the time and space, the moments of change often come. Perhaps unaware, we allow exactly what needs to happen to come out entirely different than we we walked in.

So, let’s revel in the time and space we have - and remind ourselves that maybe, just maybe, we can preemptively be grateful for what we didn’t even realized we needed all along.

Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known.

- Carl Sagan, Astronomer